I can feel the War Room's patio calling me.
Warm July nights, ahhhh
I adore summer patio action- I will create a better compilation of venues to host parties and whatnots: Bal Mar, Kolbeh, Barca, Lark, any fine restaurant with the large table, sushi Ali style, Garage and Sunset Bowl.
I am a diamond in the ruff, the rare breed fantasized about, desired and obtainable with just the right inflection of love. I’m being much more conscious of what I’m saying to myself… and it’s working to change negative choices and a new concept- ‘ordering negative things’ with my thoughts. I want to have a career and money like before- Working for the Hulit’s and p/t as a concierge.
In the shower I thought to myself- maybe I’ll just be a totally made up person for a while, one who is unpredictable and opposite; I’ll protect my ego (I’m lonely) and distract from the feeling that I’m going insane. (Like I said, I’m wiped from today’s session cuz I can’t fight the inability to react badly towards myself.) So my alter ego would be outgoing and hard to nail down. Unwilling to really like you and too busy to care. It’ll be like playing ‘the game’. After all I’m not taking this seriously because I keep thinking-
(edited to delete much of my crappy writting)
