Ugh, it's been a tough couple of days. Things are rough due to hormones which has supplied my brain with a steady feed of dread and negativity. I swear I haven't felt this bad in months.
Sporadically I alleviate the dread by cleaning and banging out work.
Think positively I keep telling myself. Nothing comes from the negativity but more negativity. I'll be happy when this cloud passes because I'm feeling lots of despair over lack of clients and work. I feel like I have way too much competition to continue working towards my own business. ACK, this can't be- I should be able to make it, exceed these existing businesses and bring in clients. I can't wait for this cloud to pass so I can get back to feeling like the sky is the limit.
I'm feeling the financial pinch once again. What I wouldn't give for a steady paycheck. I now regret leaving the Medina job from hell and that additional 10 grand I would have had to attend school and pay off my credit cards- gah
*insert picture of Debbie Downer here*
Really life is fantastic and is only getting better- I'm just so slogged with this feeling and it's hard to shake. Venting is what I require so thank you blog for listening.
In addition to heave job seeking and resume reviewing, I went through past blog entries for goals I had set for myself and updated the ones I've accomplished. I have a clear outline of what must be accomplished- I'm mostly happy with my progress.
One goal unattained currently: Painting my living room and bedroom.
I haven't figured out a color scheme for my bedroom yet but according to feng shui I should be considering reds and purples- both clash with my blue bed sheets...
My living room is still unpainted but since posting months ago I HAVE figured out a color scheme; which when pictured in my head, makes my living room feel rich and luxurious. I'll be using a low fume
Olympic paint my hunky houseman turned me onto which can be found at Lowe's. The picture is close to the wall color I'm looking for- something blue-gray. I'm hoping the cool icey feeling color will be warm enough in the space.
(I secretly love walking into testosterone-filled mega stores like Lowe's and HD. I'm sure most people think I stick out like a sore thumb. With my hair did and my high heels clicking on the cement- little do they know, I know what braided metal is... I am afraid of the pvc isle though.)
Obtained goal- I have four mock designs (greeting cards) to send out to Virginia/
Nicola Flora in hopes she'll love the designs so much she'll want to sell them in her store. This excites me and makes me think I should go paint immediately-
Today I also sent pictures of Kumal and Songa to
CuteOverload.com in hopes of post love.
I hope they post at least one of the two cuddle shots I sent. Currently Songa is stealthy hidden behind my new curtains- ooh, there he is, he just popped his head out- he's learning. First the metal blinds, now the verticl curtains. He's a genius and probably was in his past life.
Today I also sent pictures of Kumal and Songa to CuteOverload.com in hopes of post love.
I hope they post at least one of the two cuddle shots I sent. Currently Songa is stealthy hidden behind my new curtains- ooh, there he is, he just popped his head out- he's learning. First the metal blinds, now the verticl curtains. He's a genius and probably was in his past life.
